Good Charlotte - Wondering
("no matter how much you hate, whack or curse me! i will always treat you as my good friend!")
well...
i guess one day of penning down my thoughts ain't enough!
let me dedicate one last page about my wonderful friends i have suffered and enjoyed with during our 5 years in queenstown!

well lets start off with...
ru ting!
you are considered the person to know me from top to bottom!
you are very important to me...
we weren't close at all during the sec 1 days...
but fate brought us together as close friends!
and till now...
you are still my best pal...
john!
since primary school i've known you...
but we've never been in the same class at all...
it was till sec 1 and on to sec 5 that we had been in the same class...
despite the few bickers we had in school...
but i guess it was meant to be forgotten...
the stall 3 aunty would always remember us i guess! haha!
the curly hair aunty that would always serve us first!
and i guess we tend to sit beside during lesson times...
all that would not be forgotten!
candice!
one of the 4 "beaches" in class!
well...
somehow u might seem to be one!
but hey! you are seriously caring towards me!
i feel very touched and all...
we hang out in town very often...
and you letting me meet more friends!
like regina and all...
i seriously treasure those time we had together and all the photos i had with you...
i think i kept every single one in my hard drive!
you will never been forgotten!
sherlyn!
my holland study partner!
i miss those time we had during the few months back we had studying together in holland!
i know the little time we had together before...
and it will never be forgotten!
as friends! i will miss you terribly...
and monitress! we will still meet up freaking often!
melody!
hahaha! i remember loving to give you many nicknames!
like erm! "breadtalk", "mai loti", and i guess many more...
you will grow to be taller than me "someday" i guess!
you are my phone chatting partner and i enjoyed those laughters!
thanks for those late night chats...
oh... and for comforting me through those hard times!
jiaming!
my doggy friend!
i think i started being like closer to you at the end of sec 1...
it was then we went out together and all...
my mahjong friend that won alot of my money!
i will never forgot those times in school...
when we laugh at jokes that people said and all...
someone who goes home with me almost everyday until i shifted!
thank you millions!
pikie!
my laughing pal and john no. 2...
you eat seriously alot...
and i remember you for being the laughing queen!
and i can remember our squabble too...
those were the childish time but i have forgotten them...
it had ended and we are good friends!
i will never forget you and will always laugh with you!
oh and ya!
pansy!
hahahhaa!
auggy!
i know i am not close to you...
but hey! i still regard you as my close friend!
another mahjong karki!
i will always remember your trademark "what if..."!
and all your jokes which are kinda funny and entertaining!
i have never remember quarrelling with you doh...
but i guess i will miss you too...
alvin!
and important pal in class!
why?
its because he sat beside me for a year and that brought us close together!
you helped me alot during the times when i am lost in my work!
my constant insults and whacks on u!
i hope you would forget them...
and i really respect you for this phrase you said to me!
"no matter how much you hate, whack or curse me! i will always treat you as my good friend!"...
i will never forget this!
jessica!
thanks for your constant supply of songs!
i will miss you like hell...
you are too nice and kind to me...
and i know you would be there for me whenever i need help!
because you are wonderwoman!
haa! just kidding but i will miss you loads!
sorry i flared at you at times and i hope you will forget them!
jocelyn!
my estate neighbour...
don't be late whenever i meet you!
you almost cause me to be late for school at times but hey!
we had never been late!
dont be so fickle minded!
must make your choice!
tg or jm?
oh yah! and you are forever out of this world!
always saying things that people wont understand!
but i will try to...
reynold...
buddy!
thank you for being there through the last few months...
i really enjoyed them totally...
from disturbing of jocelyn to studying together!
recess together for a change for the last few months was good...
i know you will miss me and i will too...
brice!
i got to know you better this year though!
but i have learn something great from you...
which is that you are a french!
haha! i know i am lame!
well...
your love for guitars i will always remember!
and i will start to love them too...
keng lam!
haha...
i think i knew you through brice i think...
erm! on the other hand i cant remember!
but you are a great online chatting partner too...
you talked and comforted me during the bad times!
and i seriously treasured them!
gerlin, russell, yi wen, lois, weifang, sianlin, darren and many others...
thank you for your company in library...
i think we worked well as a team this year...
and i seriously enjoyed them...
the laughs and jokes we had together in the library!
and i seriously admire your respect for me i guess as a senior adviser...
i thought i was as young as you guys...
well we would be graduating together!
but i will always remember you guys!
elaine!
well! although we didnt really talk this year!
but i guess we had our enjoyable moment the past two years!
i think i am the closest to you among the 4 of you...
but i will never forget either of you!
many hugs!
jie ping!
despite not being in the same class as you...
but i enjoyed the holland bk studys!
and hey! i wont ignore you okay!
aloysius!
my block neighbour!
i am on the 9th floor and you're on the 24th...
i will never forgot your loud blast and hyperactive moments!
you are truely an amazing friend!
and i know you care for anyone!
take care and enjoy yourself with yvenna! (:
jaslin!
i can remember the times when we hang out at coffee bean wheelock together!
i too remember those moments!
when can we have them again?
i know you love to doll yourself up and look good...
but you are already good looking enough!
study hard and love maths!
yong seing!
you are a good friend to me...
i can remember your pervertic teachings!
and all i can describe about you is pervetic!
i would always remember you as teletubbies!
you and your "tubi tubi"...
cheers to you mate!
shirin!
my msn game pal!
bejeweled!
thats the game!
but hey! i will beat you in it someday!
bring it on!
ms tan, ms chua and mr foo...
i think you guys treated me and some others not only as students but friends too...
i remember all your treats to meals outside and talk to us about anything!
your openess and heartiness have really led me to become more approachable!
and that i seriosuly enjoyed your teachings too...
thank you millions too...
ms tan! you helped me many in english that i hoped to at least get a B3 for it!
you have helped me alot in english and i wont drop from there!
ms chua! thanks for passing my humas at times!
but you didnt passed me for my prelims!
despite that! my two essays written to you, i wouldnt say gone into vain!
but it had made me improved!
thank you very very very very much!
i guess thanking you would just not be enough!
but i will try to study hard and ace for my subjects!
i had been truely touched by all your kindness and efforts!
once again! thank you millions!
mdm yani!
i think you are a little different!
because i think we look up to you as our mother!
laughs* but i guess its true!
thanks for my accounts grades!
you truely prevented me from falling!
my sec 3 friends!
people like ryan, yu jia, veronica, pamela, evelyn, elaine, wan jun, dorcas, other perth pals, other librarians and many others too...
i have never thought of you as juniors but i seriously enjoyed myself with you guys!
espacially ryan as a chief librarian now!
and erm! yujia, elaine, wanjun, dorcas and others for the wonderful time in perth!
many thanks to you!
i will miss you guys!

after the prom night or collection of 'O's result!
it might be the last day of our meetings and gatherings!
till then, we will all go our own seperate ways!
but looking back through photos and year books!
i will miss you dearly and loads and thrillions and zillions!
take care and we will try to meet up some day!
ciaos!

Amy Grant - I Will Be Your Friend (once again)
this song kept running through my mind...
i told myself that it's a must to blog today!
definitely...
its the last day of our important life in secondary school...
it was the day to put our differences aside and enjoy it as a whole school for the 2nd last day!
it was a jam-packed day as we were busy taking photos...
it was the day filled with memorable reminiscences...
throughtout the whole study periods in school...
we were taking photos and either signing on the year books or even shirts/pe t-shirts...
i chose to bring an extra PE t-shirt to let people sign on...
and it turned out FULL!!!
the photo taking sessions just didnt end there...
the corridoors were packed with the express taking photos too...
no one wants to forget this day!
the same goes for me...
the graduation ceremony was hilarious...
the jokers were creating funny jokes to laugh about...
and we performed this chinese song...
it was hell of a meaningful song...
mr goh played the harmonica while ms tan and mrs yeong sang with us, the sec 5s...
teachers performed so did the students...
the concert ended and it was time for our report books...
my tears were on the brim of my eyes when mdm yani came shaking our hands to give us her best regards as she teared...
the tears that came out from her eyes wasnt any ordinary little drops of tears...
well, i shouldnt say it is just teared! but actually cried!
the tears that rolled down her cheeks was like erm...
i can't explain it...
but that seriously made me teared...
as she hold my hand...
i comforted her...
i know! its the time for all to cry and forget about it and be happy the next day...
but however, the day would definitely not be forgotten...
i walked over to miss tan as she wished one by one of us the best for our 'O's and future endeavours...
of cause! she cried too...
as the girls went over to give her a hug...
her shoulder was like wet!
when i went to talk to her for the last time as a student in queenstown(well, not taking 'O's into consideration)...
this time round, i cried!
ms tan was a very patient teacher...
no matter how much she yelled at us!
we would not think of it as something negative...
but actually, something that we could learn about...
to the 1E'01 pupils, she had been their form teacher for the full 5 years...
none the less, she had been the teacher of 1D'01 for 4 years too...
it was then we all went down to the canteen...
it was an early birthday celebration for ms chua...
we prepared a cake for her and all...
as now i am blogging, thinking of the day!
i smile and understand that it is something everyone have to go through!
the previous batch had theirs last year...
while the next batch are going to have theirs next year...

many friends met throught his 5 years route...
started off with just john and gary being in the same class as me from rv...
but as time seriously passed...
i've met many wonderful friends like ru ting, jia ming, candice, sherlyn, reynold, melody, pikie, yong seing, jessica, jocelyn, alvin, jie yong, kuan loong, brice, keng lam, jie ping, gerlin, russell, yi wen and many many more...
despite our differences in language speaking and all...
we still manage to communicate and kept the friendship for 5 years!
a memorable and filled with joy and laughter one!
however, this group of people is not all that school wants us to treasure...

another important group of people is the teachers...
miss tan, being our form teacher for 3 years and english teacher for one year!
although screamed and shouted at us!
but it was for our own good...
i seriously treasured those times we laughed together in class with whoever's jokes!
her tears led me to burst into tears too...
but it shows how much i really will miss you as a form teacher and friend!
miss chua, our very patient humans teacher!
she puts in full fledge efforts for us!
meeting up with us to go through ss and geog with us despite busy schedule...
i will always remember the "damn idoi*"...
i guess not only will i but actually!
everyone!
mr goh, our cold joker for mother tongue...
despite hating chinese somehow...
i still enjoyed all his little "not funny" jokes in class...
and that i passed chinese for prelims!
mr foo, our science-chemistry teacher!
he's constant reminding of asking me to greet him when i see him...
will always be remembered!
i always feel sleepy during his lessons...
but hey! its not him who makes me bored...
its just the subject i guess...
"you're mad" and his teddy bear shirt will leave many memories in us!
mr ng, another patient science-physics teacher!
he had never flared at us before...
i love physics because he is not fierce!
but that i also respect him as a teacher for treating us as adults!
mrs yeong, our cute "little" maths teacher!
her "ooi ooi" has left many happy and funny moments in my life...
she believes in us that we can ace our maths paper!
that i've got to thank her!
i love it when she ask us to do our math papers and i kept every single piece of them...
to show how much i really treasure maths!
mdm yani, an accounts teacher who puts her full trust in us...
it made us more matured and know whats right and wrong...
her constant chats with the class had taught us millions!
and her tears really touched me! and seriously! its TOTALLY!
we will try to prove the 1.75 average for accounts to her!
mr loh, a pe teacher who loves to chat with us!
he likes to gather us to talk to us either before every pe lessons or after!
and they are not jokes or rubbish!
but FACTS!
despite missing so many pe lessons!
but i still enjoyed the rest...
mr kong, our hypnotising cme teacher!
we all tend to fall asleep during his lessons...
but seriously!
it taught us alot to wake up our senses and do the right thing!

there are many more things that i just want to pen down!
but i guess i will have to stop here...
or it would never end!
and from the bottom of my heart...
i just wanna thank those wonderful people out there who have changed my life...
however, i know today would not be the end of our road...
the last would be the collection of results...
till then, we will meet maybe for the last time as a whole cohort!
many goodbyes and partings till then!
(oh yah! and stall 3 aunty! i would never forget you!)

Thrice - Image Of The Invisible
well...
thrice's vheissu and staind's chapter V are not that awesome afterall...
thrice's album was a disappointment...
staind's one was kinda expected...
i think my work is piling and i need to clear them as soon as possible...
homeworks lies everywhere!
friday's grad day and its like one of the most memorable event in one's teenage life!
its like the last day of our life in school uniform...
unless we go to the JC!
but it also shows us that it is a new route to take and thats to move on to the next phase in life!
just hope friday will be a memorable day!
i will be sure to miss the teachers and friends!
well...
as i said work is piling!
high time for me to start!

All American-Rejects - It Ends Tonight
i had a tough day today...
it was science practical...
went for breakfast with rey, jess, jocelyn and jiaming...
headed to school at 10.30...
practical was till 1.30...
ended school and rushed home...
freaking phone spoil...
decided to pop by bugis with my mum to the O2 centre...
left it there to repair...
have to wait for 1 or 2 weeks before i can collect...
went down to raffles city after that...
my mum was hunting for a locksmith...
can't find one and left for town...
oh! i happen to meet melvin at raffles city...
he was meeting his friend...
well...
headed down to apple centre at orchard to repair another gadget...
my freaking ipod went bonkers...
left it there for another 2 to 3 weeks...
upsetting..
i can't believe i have to wait so long...
but its just my misfortune...
well...
candice was my lucky star...
she had a spare phone and she lent it to me...
thank god...
(:

Funeral For A Friend - Monsters
gosh!
i am back online again!
finally!
shifted and internet and everything had to come later...
but yah!
it's here!
i was absent from school on tues...
some house thing...
and jocelyn was like being a bytch!
she likes to meet me at 7.18am...
and that made us dashed to school...
our 1st bell rings at 7.20...
and 2nd bell rings at 7.25...
we will be considered late if we don't hurry...
practical tomorrow...
so i guess i wouldnt need to wake up early...
and hey!
that means i can sleep for like another 3 hrs...
guess i got to run now...
ciaos!

Funeral For A Friend - Streetcar
i guess i havent been consistent in blogging...
just didnt feel quite well these few days...
was terribly upset...
today was funny although i was pissed by mr goh...
i guess misery just have to put to a sstop somewhere...
i am lost...
but i thought real hard for my next step...
it always ends up in emptiness...
maybe...
its the consequences i have to bear...
i will have to accept it...

Funeral For A Friend - History
i've been feeling so stressed up these few days...
i didnt have the courage to approach my dad to ask him something...
well...
staying in singapore is not always the best choice...
i feel so empty here...
its like as though i have nothing left here...
i feel so upset everyday!
i always ask myself what am i doing in this school?
i should have left and found something better...
staying in this school gives me the pain...
i wanted to ask my dad if he could give me accomodation in beijing...
but i couldnt put myself to ask him...
i think i will probably ask him when i go there for hols...
its not as though i need them...
i find it totally alright to say we are friends!
definitely bullshit to say good friends...
i don't need to be treated transparent...
ignore me for all you can because i wanna drift from you guys!